BEING A TRAMPLED ROSE: A REFLECTION ON ENERGY GIVEN AND GOTTEN

They say that life is short but I have seen people assumed themselves on higher stools to knock me on the head hence making me a trampled rose. They also say to keep your circle small but as mystery would have it, the sphere has closed in on me.

This is not written out of regrets but a place of love that springs joy still. Can’t lie I think I am getting to the burnt part of this pot of beans called LIFE. I hate to learn in the hard way because I don’t get to learn at all, I only just realize how ugly a human’s soul can be.

Reflecting on the to & fro of life. . . .

— Sa'eedah Imam (@saeedah30th) May 7, 2019

What am I supposed to learn from being betrayed? Not to trust again and shunt my emotions – is that not???

If the lesson learnt is not to trust anyone and be unemotional, I better be unlearned and pray to meet the right friends and lover. This shitty life shouldn't be hard still.😟

— Sa'eedah Imam (@saeedah30th) May 8, 2019

All in all, I do not have that flag of perfection on my shoulders but if there’s anything I can perfectly give, it is good vibrations and energy. The type that would make you admire me after judging me but little did I know that it could earn me a grievous envy too.

In my world is pure love, joy and happiness but if you snooze you lose.

— Sa'eedah Imam (@saeedah30th) May 7, 2019

My soul is beautiful in and out as a rose flower endowed by its rich green leaves. What I got within is pure love expressed in sheer open mindedness.

It is disheartening that I am a trampled rose when close and beloved people become strangers overnight and go all the miles into beasthood. I insist that nothing is learnt nor changed. I still bear the same old selfless soul.

So currently, I am:

Seeing more reasons to be sweeter even in the face of unwarranted bitterness from people.

Depending solely on my instincts and burying self doubt any time it tempts to pop up.

Creating my magics alone cos tbh I am scared of any more collaborations and group involvement where I wouldn’t know the true intentions of my supposed team.

Fully involved with myself and my creativity. I don’t mind getting drunk on that juice.

Praying to meet and make better friends with people with the light of God and an altar of conscience seated in them.

Also praying for this phase to pass unto glory because I believe it is the next to breakthrough.

Getting rid of bitterness is eseential to living life effectively and successfully

— Sa'eedah Imam (@saeedah30th) June 7, 2019

Events will shake you but it will be said that you gave your all.

-Sa'eedah Imam

— Sa'eedah Imam (@saeedah30th) May 6, 2019

Same energy always.

— Sa'eedah Imam (@saeedah30th) May 6, 2019

Reading ‘Open Heavens daily devotional book’ by Pastor Adeboye (my mum takes it upon herself to buy it for me yearly, I just committed to it this 2019) and ‘Simple Practices Transformational Results’ by Derin Ogunmola (it was a gift from a colleague).

Coming to terms with the feeling of being depressed and unmotivated sometimes, I am not struggling or denying it. I am doing a great deal of talking myself out of it and seeing a bigger picture ahead.

Working smarter, harder and dreaming big. In fact I see myself in a private jet to Hawaii every time I close my eyes.

Feeding myself well and exercising to keep a fit frame.😍

Filling my soul with adventures and drifting from regrets.

Above all, I am sweet, unbothered and my energy is on 💯 for life.

Tell me about you. What’s been happening to you lately?

Love Always
Sa’eedah!