I am the happiest to be jumping on my own thing, ”The Shabby Podcast.” I must have posted a couple of podcasts on here which are not particularly mine; they are either my work podcasts or that of my brother with his fiancée but this is all mine.

Let’s get to it!

For a period of 4 weeks, I have been experiencing something I call ‘mental relapse.’ What the case used to be with me was to always pick myself up each time I went low on my productivity or felt mentally unsettled but this time it seemed impossible to achieve that.

One good thing is my ability to discern whatever I got going at every point and give it a name, but this time I gave it a name and still couldn’t find my way out of it. Usually, I would go back to the basics to figure out what could be the cause in order to help myself get back on track; even at that, I still missed it totally with myself. It hasn’t been the best feeling.

The Shabby Podcast relates to the mental health journey of every average youth out there and I also promise you constant dose of my unfiltered talks with my friends and like minds. It will be mad fun!

It’s not that I am down, dampened or depressed, Nope! My creative juice just wasn’t flowing as it should. I was functioning as if I wasn’t. It was only known to me because I appear good every other time and still relate perfectly with my environment – I just knew deep down I wasn’t getting shit done.

I would revisit my to-do list every now and then see if it would set me straight but pppptttfffff nothing good came out of that Jerusalem. This was beyond procrastination for me as the event has always being. I had no excuse for it and I was sure it wasn’t any unforeseen pressure, I just wasn’t productive.

I wasn’t doing what sets my spirit in motion, and if I did anything which was my basic 9-5  job description, I knew I wasn’t doing it at my optimum. I tried talking to someone, I pinched myself to stop. I tried again but I only seemed relatable to a fault.

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I have always had my mental health journey going on here but in the most subtle way, but this time I came all out. I took the time to feel every way I felt, I waited it out, I did not struggle with the feeling and gradually I started realigning till the point where I found this new creative squeeze I call ‘The Shabby Podcast.’

The Shabby Podcast was the most magical creative spark I ever had. I did not plan it, I did not see it coming –  I jumped on the inspiration immediately it dropped. It was very much unlike me who would draft out notes, thought processes and all that coordinated things my perfectionist self does. I had no name for it, neither a direction.

It was till the end of the shabby recording on my phone that I figured out it already came with its name and the way to go.

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Have You Ever Experienced Mental Relapse Before, How Do You Handle Lack of Productivity?

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